Ah! The irony! It is almost funny to me that on the first day of this month I would write about being a “Survivor.” It was in May last year that I received news of a diagnosis which would forever change my life.
Perhaps this is “The Great Set-up” for me to begin to tell more of the story about the events that transpired one year ago. I have not really wanted to take a look at some of what has happened, generally in relationship to my fears, expectations, and the people in my life.
But, yes. One year later, I am still alive.
I have survived…
Pokes and prods. Opposition and defeat. Misinformation and misunderstandings. Tests and surgeries. Fear and failure. Disappointment and broken promises. Pain of body, heart and soul.
And as life has given me all of these things, I am also grateful to have received…
Encouragement and hope. Lessons and sound guidance. Surprise visits and special moments. Laughter and joy. Understanding and healing. Reconnection and renewal. Celebration of body, heart and soul.
And I have survived the A to Z in April 2013 Blogging Challenge. Twenty-six posts. Fifteen days.
I started five days late, having forgotten I’d signed up. I skipped days because I couldn’t think of anything to write about. I didn’t think I could get it done. And I wanted to give up. But I did it anyway.
Just like I’ve survived this past year with Stage IV cancer.
Survived CT scans, MRIs, a biopsy and a prognosis from one doctor that told me it was not likely I’d make it past one year. Survived the mother of all surgeries to live to talk about it. Survived a year of my own crazy thoughts of death and dying.
And some days I’ve forgotten to “sign up” for life. Skipped days because I couldn’t think. I didn’t think I would be alive today. And I wanted to give up. But I lived anyway.
I begin this month in celebration of my “survival” of the A to Z in April 2013 Blogging Challenge. And I ask that you celebrate with me.
Celebrate by working your way through each post and sharing your comments as you “survive” Coral’s A to Z in April Blogging Challenge. (It does not have to be all in one day!)
And I also begin this month in celebration of my “survival” of this past year and ask that you celebrate with me and continue to LIVE life with me. Challenge yourself to live life doing the things that you think you cannot do.
I will not promise that I can make you a “survivor badge” as you accept either of these challenges.
What I can and will promise you is a genuine look into my life, how I think, and an opportunity to get to know me better (whether we’ve known one another for days, months, or years online or offline). I also promise that I will do my best to respond to each comment that you leave here on the blog.
I also promise you that when I give of myself to you–when I share my heart–I take a big risk. I am vulnerable with you. I will allow you in. Give of myself in a way where I can feel hurt, pain and disappointment. Just as I will share hope and joy and love.
Whether you know me face-to-face or simply through my writing, trust that I do not take whatever is shared lightly. Ever.
And though I’m certainly not perfect, there are several in life and beyond who could attest firsthand to that.
From the depths of my heart, thank you all for your continued support of me as we learn together how to keep…
Laughing, hoping, loving, living (and surviving)…beyond life’s challenges.
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